Our last day in California was a rainy one. The weather matched our moods. We didn’t want to leave Jazmin at all. In that short amount of time we bonded quickly. I always considered her my daughter, even if I was just a step mom. The first time she called me mom… I wanted to sob like a little girl. I don’t know if it was the arm in arm talks we had while walking around her school, the smile on her face while she laughed at her dad or just the simple fact that I identify with her so much at that age. Now, granted I was a bit more rebellious then her but our paths mirror one another. In just four days I realized the truths behind bonding without a DNA connection. I know it can happen and in no way doubt it. The truth that I learned is that without the DNA bond, it’s more about removing yourself for the greater good of the other person. Like adoption, fostering, step parents, Big Brother Big Sister, or being a mentor. When you let go of you and love someone just out of love (agape) no matter who you are you are going to have a forever bond. Don’t get me wrong, sometimes the picture may be a bit blurry and it may seem like your bond is broken but there’s something always in your heart tugging about and bringing those memories forward.
In my case, A beautiful young woman trust me with her heart. Trust me enough to be her mom. Her past is full of rocks and stones that have been tossed at her, whipped at her and knocked her down a time or two. Every adult in her life (up till now) has hurt her, abused her, used her, took her for granted, and simply just didn’t care about this precious soul. Her whole life she wondered who she was. She prayed for her dad. She cried for someone to just love her. Treat her with respect. It is a true honor when she calls me mom. That my growth through Christ shows her it’s ok. That she has a mom and dad who love her so very much. My growth through Christ helps her keep her head up. I cannot thank God enough for having patience with me while I bumped my head a time or two (or four or five). I never imagined my life how it is and I can say that I wouldn’t change it for all the wonders of the world.
So as I look back on our brunch out looking the Pacific Ocean, I know why we cried saying goodbye. We bonded in a way that words can’t really express. That the future was in our sights and we have so much to look forward to. A seed was planted that day. The rain, a sweet symbol from God, that our souls were being nourished. Our time apart is like a seed underground. You can’t tell what’s going on till one day it sprouts into the sunlight for all to see.
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| a rainy day veiw of the ocean |
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| three generations! |
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| next trip to cali, this is a must redo! adults only. $39 a person, four course and the food was delish! |
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| champaign at 10 am? um sure but I need an orange juice too. It took 5 mins to explain that I didnt want it mixed but in the end I got my OJ |
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| jazmins omlet |
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| my food, mahi mahi in lobster and shrimp saue, potatoes, green beans and a poached egg (egg wasnt my thing rest was soooo good) |
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| pastachio cake. yum! |
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| grab a wet suit & go surfing |
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